Dear Creative Soul Sister,
Yesterday my husband John shaved all my hair off. Here's why:
Something’s been stirring in me lately (largely influenced by the planetary activity happening in our skies at the moment, no doubt). I’ve been fired up about shedding old limiting beliefs, fear and the constraints I’ve put myself in, to break free into a more expanded version of myself. Shaving all my hair off felt like a perfect starting point, a marker in the road, a symbol of my intention to be true to myself and to strip away all that no longer serves me.
I’d always admired women who were brave enough to shave their heads and secretly always wanted to do it myself, so yesterday morning whilst washing up, I decided I was going to do it. It wasn’t a moment of recklessness. It was a resolute, calm sureness that came over me. I walked into the sitting room and announced my intention to my 20-year-old son. He told me, 'Don't be stupid. You're not going to do it!' I laughed at him and said, ‘yes I am.’ My son likes conformity, safety and sameness. He’s like my inner-critic manifest. He doesn’t mince his words and gets pretty adamant about keeping me safe from making a fool of myself. His reaction consolidated my decision. The more he resisted and reacted, the more I knew it was the right thing to do.
My husband agreed to do it and before I knew it I was sat in front of my current, large intuitive painting, awaiting the beginning of my liberation. My husband switched on the clippers and with a gentle, persistent hum of the motor, started to plough through my hair. My stomach felt flighty and squirmy, my breathing shallow, my heart fluttery. I steadied myself and internally spoke to the frightened parts of me that were freaking out about what was happening, ‘It’s ok, you’re safe, John will still love you, YOU will still love you, it’s only hair.’ I drew courage and comfort from my painting in front of me. It reminded me that the painting process has taught me how to take risks, to trust the unknown and to move towards what I resist. I closed my eyes and took some deep breaths and smiled to myself. I wondered if I’d cry, if I’d hate it? I decided to let go and stay present to myself in the moment. I was ok, all was well.
Within a few minutes it was done. I reached up and felt my new hair. It felt springy and my head buzzed with the sensation of my hand rubbing over it. It felt wildly alive. I was surprised with how calm I felt as I looked in the mirror. It didn’t freak me out. I liked it. It felt edgy and cool. I saw a woman looking back at me who was unafraid to take risks, a woman who was courageous and determined to free herself from staying small and behind the veil. This woman was becoming who she was always meant to be.
I shared a couple of photos on social media of my new hair and was overwhelmed with the response from so many people. It seems when we see displays of courage and bravery in another person, this connects with something inside each of us - the part that is screaming out for liberation, freedom and risk taking too.
The astrologers are telling us that this weekend's new moon eclipse in cancer, is a very potent time to set intentions and to revise our lives. What are you ready to let go of in your life? What’s holding you back? What are you resisting? What are you ready to call in?
I wish you freedom and liberation.
Lots of love and light,
I've been continuing to make a quick intuitive collage every morning for the last number of weeks. It's quickly become part of my routine that I look forward to and get so much out of. I find it so nourishing to be in conversation with my inner child, inner wise woman and all the parts of myself that make up my whole being. Wisdom comes through noticing repeated choices of similar images, colours, placement and patterns. Over time I am seeing and hearing myself more clearly. You can see my collages in my Instagram story highlights.
I also returned to my morning pages practice (as described in The Artist's Way, Julia Cameron) a couple of weeks ago. I missed it. Letting my thoughts, ideas, emotions and musings tumble out onto the page uncensored again has helped to free me up and receive divine inspiration in the form of new ideas and combinations that I hadn't previously thought of. Do you do morning pages?
Until next time keep creating and if you feel called to go on your own journey of personal transformation and you need a travel companion check out my Rise Sister Rise Program specifically tailored for women like you x